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Change. How many little sayings about change can we come up with? How many motivational/self improvement things have you read or seen over the years?
My pastor talked about transitions last Sunday, and it started me thinking through my transitions in life and wondering if I'm in one now.
One of the things he pointed out was a statistic that 70 percent of people do not like change.
I challenge this statistic. It's inaccurate.
We don't have a problem with change. Think about it, ladies. How many females love shopping? Why do you love shopping? Well, for me, it's because I want new and different things to wear, to look at, or to experience around me.
That's a change.
And it's one a lot of us embrace and seek out.
People don't dislike change.
When change takes place within our sphere of control, we enthusiastically welcome it!
What people dislike, avoid, and panic over is the loss of control! Right?
Moving on.
If I could let you inside my head to see what I thought I was going to write about versus what actually shows up on the page, you'd be shocked.
Anyway, I've been thinking about a change in my life.
I'm in a funk. I'm in a weird place. I'm trying to figure out what I want to do when I grow up.
My youngest child is going to kindergarten in the fall, and it's got me all balled up.
Notice I said "balled" not "bawling". I'm looking forward to it. He'll be 6 in September and he and I are both ready for him to go.
I have really been in a bit of a mental flurry over this. I've been running over the options in my mind...of course, I could remain working outside the home part time evenings and devote all of those kid-free school hours to freelance writing. I could convert those evenings to part time days and do what I do now...write when I can squeeze it in. I could get a full-time job....although I don't really think I have time for that. I could start my own business, I've had a few ideas. I could take classes and finish college.
Before I had kids, I just worked full time, sometimes more than full time. When my first child was 2, I started my SAHM-ness. I also helped to build and run my then-husband's business. In 2008, I got the part time job I still hold today, but I still consider myself a SAHM. I'm home all day with NuggetizerB5. I'm here when my kids get home, I'm home to pick up sick kids from school or to run to and from practices, concerts and appointments.
So my life will change greatly in just a few months. I'm feeling pressured (by my own brain) to decide what I want to be, in addition to "mom."
2 comments:
I can totally relate to what you're going through. Trying to figure out what move to make. what is the best. I have literally almost driven myself crazy running this through my mind! Trying to decide if I should stay home or work or part time etc. I really understand. I know that God will open the right door at the right time. It's crazy now when I look back and see the path He unfolded for me at the right time. I truly believe that He will do that for you.
Thanks, Holly! I'm certain He will help me - I forgot to ask though! Is that so silly? Do you ever have those things that are running in and out of your brain like you're in crazytown and stop suddenly to realize you didn't ask for His help? I'm having that moment right now. Thanks for the reminder!
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