Saturday, March 10, 2012

Scrapbook Saturday: A Small Memory Book of Pictures


Mom at 18; High School Grad Picture 1959

Mom with BubbaBoy8; February 2004

Celebrating BubbaBoy8's first birthday; November 2004






Mom with her youngest son; Mother's Day 2007






Lost in thought at the girls' birthday party; August 2007



Sitting in the breeze;  OBX family wedding October 2008



Snuggling with BananaG13; Christmas 2008



Mom's 70th birthday celebration; March 2011



Friday, March 9, 2012

Fashionista Friday: Bikini Ready


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So...who loves going shopping for swimsuits?  It's so much fun to try on small pieces of fabric that leave no flaw camouflaged, isn't it?  Fluorescent lighting just acts as the cherry on top of the sundae, doesn't it?  It's amazing how some fabric, a dressing room, and the thought of going to the pool every day can make a 150 lb woman feel like she may as well be 1,050 lbs.

Well, at least that's how it feels to me.

150 pounds is perfect for me.  I wear a size 6 at that weight.  I like me at that weight.  I'll never be a size 4 again, and I'm ok with that.  My body has graciously carried and nursed 4 beautiful babies and marks have been left, but they are scars filled with memories and will always be precious.

I've decided I will go shopping for a swimsuit with pride at 150.  I'm not half bad, especially stretched out, ha ha!  I struggled with whether to share this picture, but I decided not to hide on my blog...So here I am last summer at the beach thanks to the generosity of my friend Neonatal Nurse Nancy letting me use her beach house:


I wish you could feel how my heart is pounding as I download that picture.

See, it's not me anymore.

This was taken in June or July?  I can't remember.

I have gained 20 pounds since then.  If I was even braver I'd go put my blue bikini on and take a picture today, but it was hard enough for me to post this one.  Give me time.

Does anyone else need to get bikini ready?  I do.  I'd like to look at least like my picture here or better, if possible.

What are we going to do?

My Plan:

  • Exercise 3X a week.  Yoga does not count.  I mean cardio.
  • Yoga/toning 3X a week.
  • Carb reduction - no whites - flour, sugar, rice
  • No eating after 6:30 (or 3 hours before bed...I usually go to bed around 9:30)
  • Edit this post to include a "now" picture (will have my darling love take one later today) DONE!!
That's it for now.  There's no reason why I can say goodbye to at least 15 pounds by the time the pool opens on Memorial Day, right?



What's Your Plan?

Ok, here's me yesterday, stretching that blue bikini to the limit:

March 9, 2012.  Twenty pounds to lose.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Thursday Thoughts: Missing My Mommy


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I miss my mommy.  I told you yesterday that her birthday is coming up Saturday.

There was some discussion amongst my family about how we would deal with it.  I, ever the spout-er, spouted off at the mouth about how the specific day wasn't a big deal to me, that I miss her every day and did not expect Saturday to specifically be an issue.

Blah.
Blah.
Blah.
Blah.
Bull.

It hit me this morning.  My daughter, BeanzG11, posted a picture of my mom as her status and asked everyone to comment with a "Happy Birthday" for her grama.

I'm surprised the laptop is still operating right now since it was puddled with my tears.

A lot of things make me tear up about my mom, but we are closing in on 7 months and I realize that I no longer tear up every day.  I don't even get to full blown sobbing too much, certainly less than once a week. But this...this got me right in the heart.

I do miss my mom.  I want to call her and tell her I'm writing and actually getting paid for it.  I want to call her and tell her I'm blogging, which is something we frequently discussed when she was living.  I want to call her about my heartaches and about my joys.  I want to share with her the kids' accomplishments and my struggles in raising them.  I want to dream with her about art projects and quilting projects and moan about how we'll never have time to do them.

I'm sad that her birthday will come and we will not be fretting about what to have to eat, if we should have regular cake or cake that is diabetic-friendly, whose house will we celebrate at, or will we just go out?  I see little gift items all the time that I want to give to her.  That's probably the oddest feeling I've had.

Bottom line:  I want my mommy.  That will never change, and I can't pretend it will.

I'm living my life without her being a phone call away, but she is never far from my heart and the things she taught me will stay with me, and with my daughters, and with their daughters, and so on.

I love you, mom.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

What's Cooking Wednesday: The Easiest Meal Ever!

Two things inspired this post.  First, chuck roast was on sale for $2.99 lb. last week.  Second, this is one of the easiest meals my mother ever taught me to make, and I feel like honoring her or mentioning her because this Saturday would be her 71st birthday.  It is the first time we are encountering her birthday since she passed.

OK, so what's cooking this Wednesday is a yummy for your tummy pot roast!  Perfect for a chilly day (not that we've had many of those this winter in the mid-Atlantic) and perfect for a busy day.  Just pop ingredients in the crock pot and let it go until dinnertime.

Simple Ingredients:

3 lb. beef chuck roast
2 lb. potatoes, cleaned and cut into quarters or eighths
1 small bag baby carrots
1 onion, minced, chopped or sliced...whatever you have time for
2 tsp. kosher salt
1 tsp. pepper
water

1.  Put all vegetables in crock pot.



2.  Put meat on top of vegetables.
3.  Put salt and pepper on top of meat.  Pour water over and around meat so meal won't dry while cooking.  Use about 1 1/2 cups of water.



4.  Put lid on crock pot and cook on low for 8+ hours or on high if cooking for 6 hours or less.
5.  Enjoy!


Adjust salt and pepper to taste, of course.  I prefer to under salt...it's a lot easier to add it later than it is to get over salted flavor out.

Wasn't that easy?

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Tightwad Tuesday: Where Did My Money Go?



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Dave Ramsey says something in his Financial Peace University series that really makes a lot of sense if you have been watching your money fly out the window.  To paraphrase him, having a budget is not a punishment or a practice for the poor; living on a budget is telling your money where to go instead of wondering where it went.

I took his FPU course at a church several years ago, and honestly through a divorce and financially challenging times that I could never have fathomed before, I've lost the habits I started to develop during and after that course.

Basically, Dave wants you to begin by putting together an emergency fund and paying down debt.  I have no emergency fund;  I have debts left from my divorce.  I'm getting back on track because I'm tired of chasing money.

First step is to figure out where your money is going.  If you want to join me, start writing down everything you spend every day.  After doing this for a week or two, I'd be willing to bet we'll see where we can not spend $5, $10, $20 or more each week.  Think about that...$20 a week is $80+ a month that you can probably cut painlessly and use better elsewhere.

My first cut is going to be $12 a month for a subscribed MP3 thingy.  We don't use it.  I mean to cancel it every month and haven't.  I have WASTED $144 in the last year!  This got deducted from my account this morning, so it is my first expense that is going, going, gone.

Yesterday I spent $6.75 at the library.  $4 for movies (which is a good deal, we get them for a week) and $2.75 for late fees.  I've got to cut the late fees...I'm really bad at this.  I even get emails 3 days before they are due, and all I would have to do is log in and renew them...but I always think I'm going to get them back on time and I rarely do.

The only solution here is to "Just Do It", like Nike says.  I also programmed a one day ahead reminder in my phone for what I checked out yesterday.  That way, I will more realistically be able to figure if I can get them back.

I'm not sure if I should admit to you that I can actually walk to my library in about 3 minutes.  No judgement, please!

I also bought two diet sodas yesterday.  One was $1.25 and one was $1.59.  Yep.  I know I need to stop drinking it.  I know it!  At the very least, I should buy it in a 2-liter size to save. I think my compromise is to figure that given yesterday's habits, over the course of 7 days I would spend $19.88!!!!!!! Holy cow!  I just did the math.  TWENTY DOLLARS IN DIET SODA!  I'm sorry.  I'm a little freaked right now.

OK, I'm just going to start an envelope system.  It can not longer be put off.  One of my envelopes will have a diet soda label, but I am cutting that amount in half and giving myself $10 a week.

Wow.  I'm overwhelmed by that amount going to soda.



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 If you're not familiar with the envelope system, here's the short version....you put money, cash, greenbacks, you know what I mean, into individual labeled envelopes for different budget categories that can be paid in cash.  You allot a certain amount each month or week for your budgeted items and put the money in the corresponding envelope, and when the money is gone, it's gone.  You cannot spend in this category anymore until it is replenished the next month.

Now, obviously your rent or mortgage will not be part of your envelope system.  Think of how many things could fit into this though:  Clothing money, toiletries, grocery, eating out, school supplies, allowance, haircuts, cosmetics, car repairs...there are many, many categories which you can save for in cash each month.  Not allowing yourself the swipe of a debit card (or worse, a credit card) and disciplining yourself to use what you have in the envelope is a great lesson in using what you have and also a great way to force yourself into budget consciousness.

Don't get overwhelmed.  Do some research about budgeting, write down what you're spending this week, and I'll check in with you next Tuesday.

And I highly recommend checking out some books by Dave Ramsey or Larry Burkett.  Just go to the library, don't spend money buying them until you've previewed them!

Please post in the comments if you are going to write down all you spend for the next week!
Psst.....if you spend money to go out and buy a little notebook to stick in your purse to write down your spending, don't forget to write the spending on the notebook in the notebook.  XXXOOO

Monday, March 5, 2012

Monday Motherhood Musings: Do Bears Go to Heaven?


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NuggetizerB5 always comes up with great questions, and he often has questions about heaven.  His heart is pure and he loves God wholly and innocently; he is amazing.   The resurrection is constantly on his mind...."Mom, why did those mean guys make Jesus carry the cross?" and "Why did they hit Him?"

So this weekend, it was, "Do bears go to heaven?  Are they nice in heaven?"

I don't know.  Are there animals in heaven?  I told him I wasn't sure about animals, but if they were there that they had to be nice because everything was good and perfect in heaven.

Whew.

The conversation turned to poop.  Only with a child can you have such a conversation.  It turned to a discussion about whether horse poop, than all poop, would smell in heaven.  Well, if everything is good and perfect, it would make sense right?  He doesn't quite grasp the whole concept of not being in an earthly body in heaven, so these types of questions become very difficult.

Most days, I can answer questions with Google. 

- Do butterflies have noses?
- How many days did Jesus live on Earth?
- How many days until Christmas?
- Why is the moon a crescent?
- Does Bowser always get the Princess?

Some things are just really interesting.  Like, "Mom, what if we could've seen God come down and take Grandma?  That would be cool."

Or the fist-pumping cheer on Christmas, "It's Jesus' birthday!  Yeah!"

In the haze of my illness yesterday (I was in bed all day.  Yes.  All day.  It was crazy!) I had a brilliant idea.  I kept thinking about how many of these little comments I've forgotten.  I'm sitting here right now trying to think of that hilarious thing that BubbaB8 said the other day, and my mind can see us laughing together but cannot remember what was said.

So my brilliant idea is just to write these things down in my planner when they happen.  It's always accessible to me, unlike the scrapbooks and baby books.  If I just keep my mom planners, I can record these things in baby books and whatnot when I get the chance. 

I sure wish I would've thought of this before my fourth child was 5 1/2 years old.  Geez.

Well, I'm starting right where I am.

This would've been a good idea for teeth too.  In the baby books, I have guessed at pretty much all the dates for tooth loss.  (Sorry kids)  I could've just written them in my planner all these years!

Maybe one of you with little kids can benefit from this from the start!


Sunday, March 4, 2012

Soothe Your Spirit Sunday: Going to Hell?

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I saw a video circulating this week about a church that preaches hate.  Watching this video turned my stomach, has been turning the wheels in my head, and has weighed heavily on my heart.

If you want to Google it, look for "Westboro Baptist Disowns Daughter" or something similar.  I apologize, I just don't even want to link it on my blog.

This church preaches that God hates us, that we're all going to hell as Americans, they preach racism against Jewish people, they teach that the military service men and women are wicked people.  They actually picket fallen soldiers' funerals, cheering that another in the military service has died.

Ironic that these very service men and women are responsible for maintaining the rights that these quacks have to stand in the street and spew their hate, isn't it?

Well I didn't start this post to spew my own disgust, really.  Well, I guess maybe I did, somewhat.

I started thinking about whether these people will go to hell.  Certainly we would all like to think so, right?  If you are a mainstream Christian, the belief is that you will go to heaven through faith in Jesus Christ as our Savior.  You don't have to do anything special, say anything profound, or even go to church to secure your seat in heaven.

This is where my faith is rooted.

Many Christians believe that different denominations have it wrong.  Do Catholics think Mormons are going to heaven?  Don't think they do, in general, believe that.

I have always believed that God looks at your heart, not what church you go to.  If your heart is devoted to Him and your inner faith lies in Him, He knows that.  He knows you to the core of your soul.

So what about the hate-preachers?  I believe He loves them.  I believe He is sorrowful and angry when He sees what they do....but what is inside them, driving them?  Are their actions truly deeply rooted in faith that they are doing what God tells them?  Since they claim the Baptist denomination, I'm led to believe that Jesus as our Savior lies somewhere in their doctrine.  (No, I do not view these folks as an example of the Baptist faith.)

If they truly, deeply believe that they are following God, can they still go to heaven?

I can't figure it out.  I'll be praying for these people today, and also praying for myself so God can calm my heart about it.

Another thing to add to my list of questions to ask God when I get to heaven.

What do you want to ask Him?